Hurt Girl, Sister, Mother

Hurt Girl, Sister, Mother

You will never be the apple of his eye
You never were and never will be
But neither will she and never was she
She was stranded there just like you
Only pressured by your jealousy, fear
Your failures have been lust, greed, pride
Lust for the golden star sticker, a wedding reception
Greed for attention missed and otherwise
Pride for the ordinary, the trivial you make important
Yourself promotion is effortless and ceaseless
I weep for your progeny and the pressure you pound
I too was pummeled by a proud mother
I survived and will while you wallow, mourn again
Over and over making her death less important
Than your grieving life, proving life
You child is smart but not exceptionally so
Your degree was hard earned but not exceptionally so
Your marriage was rich but not exceptionally so
Your divorce was tragic but not exceptionally so
Your engagement was simple but not exceptionally so
Your life, your drama is interesting but not exceptionally so
Your gratitude was demonstrated but not exceptionally so
Live within the confines of your ability
Spend with the boundaries of your ability
Promote others with the passion you give yourself
Rest in the bliss of the ordinary wonder that is life
Your life, your gift, your impact, your true impact
Do something, other than parent, other than daughter
Other than sister, be something unlike your companion
Your environment, your status, your purse, your car
Be honest if for only with yourself, be honest
Who are you – Why is it so very important to please
To impress, to charm, to outmaneuver with regret
Your bribery of sadness and prideful boasting
Leave me nothing about you aside your way
Poor girl, sad girl, hurt girl, daddy didn’t this
Daddy didn’t that, husband didn’t let me be this
Husband didn’t let me be that, art girl, skater girl,
Cut girl, tattoo girl, pierced up, passed around then
Buttoned down, conservative Born-again republican,
a true chameleon so truly engineered fully
Undercover in a better imaginary world
You’ve been too long forgetting where the
Wallpaper leaves off and yourself begins
You are too covered in labels and diversions
Your are too consumed with your resume
To notice you already got the job